June 13, 2010

  • delightful.  nothing says "hey, it's the weekend!" like waking up each day with a hangover quality sickness that lasts until 8pm both days.  if i drink, i deserve it, but when the only thing i've done all day is try to feel better, only to wake up feeling like shit again, i don't quite see how that's fair.

    basically, my days have consisted of this:

    the real problem is my head hurts, the weather sucks, and half of my clothes are missing.  wtfover.
    on second thought, feeling out of sorts, not myself, and not sure what to do about it.  i keep making plans, telling myself that i'm going to change things, get better.  but the real problem is i don't know what i want to change into.  how can you better your life when you have no idea what you want to do with it?  everything just seems like such a waste of time, loving and working and everything in between, just minutiae to kill time until we fade away.  uh oh, i think we've hit a stage worse than teenage emo... quarter aged apathy.  blech.  maybe i need to listen to less mopey music, cut out that portishead/jem bullshit and start cranking the AC/DC.
    change is blowing on through, though, but since i'm stuck in lazy, and the internet is working well, here's a few things i'd like to hold on to (before i wipe the whole drive clean):

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